The Dreaded Envelope

When I was two we moved two hours away from all of the family. The move was a business decision. My parents opened a construction company to take advantage of the oil boom. The move left Mom lonely, cut off from her kids. My siblings were grown, starting their own families. We lived about 15 minutes outside the closest town. Mom had nothing to do. She was determined not to like anyone in town. She still prides herself as being a loner, but then misses her friends. As an avid gardener she was frustrated she couldn't grow anything in the alkaline soil. When not running the business office or doing housework she was reading books and lots and lots of magazines. 

Mom started to clip articles and cartoons for my siblings, like "thinking of you" notes. One or two items passed on every time we went to visit. The items were small enough to be tucked in her purse. This was before personal computers were mainstream. Making a long distance phone call was pricey. The clippings were her connections to her adult children and the outside world.

Eventually the quantity of clippings and pictures were numerous enough to be sorted into labeled envelopes. One envelope for every cherished family member. Then the envelope size grew, manila envelopes. During one envelope delivery (aka visit) my sister, E, joked about "The Dreaded Envelope." A saga started.

By this time my brother had moved out of state, first to California and then to New York. He couldn't avoid "The Dreaded Envelope." Mom let him know when an envelope was mailed and she expected to be told when it was received.  

You couldn't just trash the envelope. There was no avoiding the envelope. There were quizzes! Did you read the article on watering house plants? Did you read the Family Circus cartoon? The Hagar the Horrible cartoon? How about the chainmail cartoon on deadly carrots? Wasn't that funny?

The move away from my siblings left us in limbo, too. Dad promised to build Mom a house. He wasn't a carpenter. He was a welder. Instead of a house she got a trailer house. Hang a picture in one room and the nails holding the wallboard up in the rest of the house would back out. Mom's 20 years of accumulated things were stuck in a tractor trailer in the front yard between the business shop and the house. The moving van became storage.

Storage was stacked floor to ceiling with boxes and miscellaneous items. Things placed in a hodge podge order by well meaning in-laws trying to speed up the move, ignoring my mother's lace worthy intricate planning. By the time I could take direction and hold enough weight Mom would boost me up into the trailer, err... um...storage, and up to the top of the boxes. I'd crawl across the boxes looking for an item she needed or read off box numbers. All while carefully avoiding the hot metal roof. Mom would look through stenopads of lists, the pages filled with contents of each box.  Each page carefully numbered, matching a box number. I don't know if we ever found an exact item she was looking for, but she would be excited to find some treasure or another was within reach. If she couldn't find what she needed she would order it from Sears or buy it during a trip to visit family. Eventually Dad had to build steps up into the storage trailer.  Mom started sending me to get things from boxes in the van on my own. What a daunting task!

Boxes from storage slowly made their way into the house to be sorted into drawers or under beds. Mom made the trailer house a home. A home she hated, but a home for me anyway. When there wasn't a place for an item, Mom built a place. My room filled with milk crate bookshelves for all my siblings books and books she purchased from mail order. She made built-in shelves for the living room. She built a cellar/storage shed off one end of the trailer. Most of it was canned goods or supplies. By the time we moved out of the trailer and "back to civilization" the trailer house was full and the tractor-trailer had barely been emptied of a few rows of boxes. The trailer couldn't fit all the possessions any more. 

The next town we were in was closer to family. The storage trailer was left on a piece of property outside of town. Mom still planned on building a house. The house we lived in was in town. By this time I could carry boxes. When we weren't snowed in we made regular trips to storage. The house filled quickly with boxes. There was more storage space, closets, cubbies, and corners. 

The boxes didn't always get emptied. There was an extra room in the house, designated as Mom's craft room. It filled up with boxes. Some were craft supplies. Most were boxes that never got opened. There was a precarious stack of boxes lining the room, floor to ceiling. There was a narrow walking space next, with the center of the room filled with more boxes. 

It was here the Dreaded Envelope became the Dreaded Box. 

I wish I could say the Dreaded Box was a product of the Swedish Death Cleaning method. It wasn't. Few items were treasured family pieces out of the storage trailer. Most were just thrift store finds. Boxes began piling up in my sisters' homes. 

Was this hoarding? How can you hoard when you're sharing? It's easy. In this family items are "family items." Everything. Even if you purchased it. You can't donate an item without first asking every single person in the family if they want it. Imagine it for a minute scavenging a yard sale dresser, restoring it, and discovering you can't just donate it because Mother thinks everyone has some claim to it. I have actually hauled items across the country because I felt guilty at the idea of donating it. It's CRAZY!

The Dreaded Box became a virus. The family was infected.